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Family Archivist: Why I’m the Only One Who Still Writes Letters

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I come from one of those annoyingly functional intact families that make it hard for me to sell my memoir to publishers. Of course, the rosy vision I have of my family relations is helped by the fact that I live, by choice, three thousand miles away from them in the Bay Area, and have for 20 years. It’s easier to idolize my parents and siblings (and vice versa) when we’re not rubbing right up against each other every day.

Even if the cross-country move was entirely my doing, once I became a parent the fact that I was the outer moon to their cozy hometown Family Planet became harder to bear.

When Mom and Dad wanted to see my brother’s and sister’s kids perform in a school music showcase or volleyball game, it required a drive that ranged from five to thirty-five minutes (depending on the snow). To see my kids perform, it requires advanced airline reservations, a transfer in Chicago, and three days for them to get over jet lag. Seeing Grandma and Grandpa woven into the daily lives of my nieces and nephews in a way that my own children won’t experience makes me feel the meaning of the word “apart” in every body cell.

The letters are tiny time capsules of those unexceptional quotidian details that we will someday miss with irreparably broken hearts.

Except for one thing: I’m the only one to whom my parents write letters.

The fact occurred to me about five years ago, as I opened one of the weekly missives I get from my parents. The envelopes they take turns addressing always include handwritten notes, clippings from my hometown newspaper, and random photos tucked inside. (My mom tucks in a $20 bill from time to time, and I’ll never outgrow the thrill of that.) The letters are a record of what my parents are doing, who they’ve seen, and what they’re thinking about, all in their own words. Tiny time capsules of those unexceptional quotidian details that we will someday miss with irreparably broken hearts.

With my brother and sister just a short drive away from my parents, I’m the only one in the family who gets a steady supply of these written records. If by moving to California I gave away my chance for everyday closeness, the letters bring this blessing in its stead.

To be sure, I didn’t always treat my parents’ letters with such care. I harbor a sharp memory of getting picked up at summer camp and blithely informing my mother that when mail was handed out by the counselors, her letters went straight to the bottom of my carefully prioritized stack of letters and postcards from my friends.

“Wow,” my mom said, pulled up short. “That’s not very nice to tell me, Nancy.”

“You write so much,” I blundered on, unaware as only a teenage daughter could be, about the barbed wire shape of my words.

But the light bulb finally went off, maybe around the time there were a couple of mercifully short-lived parental health scares. I started stashing the letters my parents sent me in a legal envelope. Then I decided I should save the letters they wrote to my kids, containing as they do the double barreled dose of grandparental pride that borders on “Good for you for breathing! You do it so well!” territory. So I bought a big box. And then an even bigger, fancy box because I want space to collect these letters for at least another 20 years.

With my parents getting older, my siblings have stepped up to accompany them to doctor’s appointments and lift heavy boxes and put meals in their freezer for later. I hear about it in the letters I get from my parents, and it adds a new layer of meaning to that word “apart” for me.

But someday, long from now, when those letters stop traversing the miles, I will have this precious archive of letters to share with my family back east. I remind myself that if I hadn’t moved, this box of letters probably wouldn’t exist.

And that’s enough to placate me until to the next visit home.

(Photo: Everett Collection/

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Nancy Davis Kho is a freelance writer whose work has appeared in the Washington Post, San Francisco Chronicle, Us Weekly, The Rumpus, and The Toast. She's been recognized as a Voice of the Year in the Humor Category by BlogHer and was the inaugural champion of Oakland's Literary Death Match. She covers “the years between being hip and breaking one” at and on the Midlife Mixtape Podcast, available on all major podcast platforms. Nancy's book THE THANK-YOU PROJECT: Cultivating Happiness One Letter of Gratitude at a Time is forthcoming from Running Press in December 2019. More at


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